Alice

The Rain

 

it looks like most bloggers if not all write a poem or two in their blog. So here I am sharing whats inside my mind. I'm not as good as they are but I'm trying.

He's Back With Me

Now they realize that they can’t get money from me. So they agreed to return the baby, well I did still gave them money but the thing is that they expect me to give them more in the future. Well I don’t have a plan in doing so in the future. I want to save for the baby.

I don’t know what they are thinking why they still have the nerve to ask me for more when my friend already took a lot from me and I learned he never gave a single penny to the girl.

My problem now is that the girl is not in a good condition so I need to send her to the hospital and of course who else do they expect to pay the bills of course it will be me.

I don’t have a problem about shooting the bill for her since without her I won’t have a baby. This is something I have to do but giving the father and his family money is something I will never ever do.

The papers are now legal, both parties sign the paper, I will help them as long as I can afford but not to the extent of them expecting me to send money every month.

Another Money Request

Just this morning my sons father sent me a message that he wants to borrow money from me because his wife needs it. His wife is a friend of mine so I said yes.

I borrowed money from a friend and give it to them. I feel like a milking cow right now, even with simple grocery they get it from me.

And talking about money since my son is in the province; his mother sent me a message that he needs money for the baby’s milk. I was thinking really I already gave them just too much for the fare and they spent it all.

I said I will send them milk and she did not reply at all, she is expecting money I guess but I learned my lesson. I gave them too much and now they are asking too much. It’s time to let them know that I can’t be what they think I am.

I am desperate for a baby but I won’t be that desperate enough to support a family.

My Son's Grandma

Out of a sudden my friends’ mom is so interested with the baby, I told them I will never give him back but they told me that I can have it again after they are done with the traditional kind of thing. I let it be since I know that it’s also their blood they need to do what ever they want to do just for him to be accepted on their clan.

I gave them money to go home and a lot of extra. I don’t really know why I feel like they just want to have the baby because they know I can give them money to use. I mean for diapers and milk “which is okay” but they expect me to give more.

They asked me if I have property to give to the child I said that can be arranged when he grow up. They said that’s good so that he can help them in the future. Blame me for feeling negative but I really feel like they are after the money.

Well let’s just see what happens. I already gave a lot to the father anyway; he almost took all my salary every month so he can take care of the girl. I don’t have anything against it, it was totally fine with me, but for them to ask me for more when I already have the baby is I guess to much so lets just watch and see.

First Day Mom

This is the day that I brought my son home. He’s a cute little boy with some minor health problems but he’s doing fine so far. I did not give him a name yet I’m still thinking of the right name. For now I’m happy with the name baby boy.

I know nothing about changing diapers, mixing some milk and which milk should I use but out of a sudden in a day I learn it with no mistakes.

I’m so happy.